I had a moment this week where I walked past the mirror and did a double-take.
Not because I was looking good, which I was, but because I felt like I didn’t know the person staring back at me.
It was one of the most terrifying, yet exhilarating, things that I’ve ever felt.
On one hand, I was scared because I really didn’t recognize myself and on the other, I was just so proud of me.
THE POINT OF NO RETURN.
I never knew that there would be a time in my growth journey, that I would reach a point of no return.
All of my old habits and ways of thinking are in the past.
Now that I know better, I do better. I live better.
The option to go back, isn’t even an option for me.
I have to move differently.
And that’s kind of scary to think about, especially when you are tempted to do the things you used to.
In this season, I’ve been having a hard time showing up for myself.
Working full time, blogging, and attempting YouTube, I barely have the energy to give myself attention.
To just take care of Chantéa and do other things that I like to do.
I mean, I’m always preaching self love this and mental health that.
Why has it been so hard for me to take my own advice?
I realized that this is a new version of me.
This is unmarked territory.
And because this is so unfamiliar, it’s going to take some time for me to adjust.
To learn what’s best for me in this new skin I’m in.
To get used to this new lifestyle.
IT WON’T FEEL LIKE THIS FOREVER.
Knowing there’s time and room to grow, there will be a day when I recognize the new Chantéa.
But, while I’m trying to figure it out, I need to be flexible and give myself permission to pivot at any moment.
As I trial and error through this season, I’m going to keep praying, keep trying, keep showing up, and give me as much attention as I need.
No matter the mood I’m in.
I think I like who I’m becoming…
MEET THE AUTHOR
I’m a 24 year old who is passionate about personal growth, intentional living, and spreading light wherever, whenever.